I Am a 16 year old girl from Sydney who suffers depression

I'm a 16 year old girl from Sydney who suffers depression.

Mid last year I new something was wrong, I had thoughts on suicide and self harm and no one had any idea that anything was wrong. I would write all my thoughts I had had in my personal diary which was read late last year by my own mother. She sought advice from the local adolescent service and ever since I have been seeing a psychologist and every now and again a psychiatrist. things didn't start getting anywhere, I was still feeling worthless and I found it hard to open up to my psych, but she new something was wrong so sent me to the local children's ward (supposedly for my own safety) and stayed there for a week or so.

Then nearly one month later I took an overdose on pain killers and was once again admitted to hospital, this time for just over 2 weeks. Things had begun changing at home, I mean in a good way, and I started to see everyone trying to support me. by now I had changed psychologist as I felt that my old one wasn't doing anything for me and have been seeing my new psych ever since.

I'm not going to lie, it was still really hard, and once again I tried overdosing, but this time to a greater extent, my mum found me in my room unconscious and was taken to hospital by ambulance and put on heart monitors, drips, and had about 5 blood tests. It was I guess a wake up call. Seeing my mum so frantic about what I had done, there were tears, arguments and fear from both sides of the party. I never new the extent it would have caused by my death but now I know.

Nearly a month on, and now things are looking up, I've doubled my meds, are making progress with my psych and am getting along great with my family. Everyone is so much more understanding now, I know I'm far from recovery but now I am starting to see the light. I guess all it takes is patients, a supporting family, and the right meds and psychologist. with all of these i hope other peoples lives will be much better then mine, I've finally realized that people are put out there to help young people and I am extremely grateful for that, I hope in the future I may be able to do that for someone else's life.